10 weeks 3 days...or 10 weeks, who knows?

How far along: 10 weeks 3 days....we're going to go with that b/c I don't want to have to redo 3 days when I'm counting down to the end of first tri LOL

How big is baby: According to the Bump, (who likes to compare baby to fruits and veggies) he/she is the size of a prune....my what to expect app says a lime.

Total weight gain: Maybe up a pound total. I made up for the weight I lost when I was sick last week.

Sleep: I spoke too soon last week. Sleep has sucked this week. I can't fall asleep until late even though I'm exhausted by 8pm and after I wake up to pee I can't fall back asleep for an hour or longer :(

Maternity Clothes: not yet, but I'm anxious for an actual baby bump and not just a fatter stomach.

Food cravings : cliche as it is I had to have pickles today LOL

Food Aversions: soup and crackers which I used to love

Challenges: Trying not to worry that something might go wrong. The last few days I've felt a lot better, I don't have to force myself to eat food. I'm still gagging a lot which is awesome at work in the middle of a treatment. I'm also having to learn to let things that people say to me about my body and my baby roll off my back. I knew it would happen, but it's still obnoxious.

Movement: Not for awhile

Boy or Girl?: Won't know until January...if we decide to find out

What I’m looking forward to: Telling the hubs' extended family the Saturday after Thanksgiving. They're having family pics taken and the photographer is a good friend of ours that already knows so she's going to help us tell everyone and then get their reactions on camera :) Thanks Kati!! https://www.facebook.com/CreativeJuicesPhotographyByKatiBodle

What I miss: good sleep and not feeling like so much of a fat ass

Next appt:  Nov. 29th 12 week appt

9 weeks...again?

 We have a baby!

 We had our ultrasound appt this afternoon. I was so anxious! They tell you to drink x amount of water so you'll have a full bladder...then they made pregnant lady sit in the waiting room for 45 min :-/ By the time we got called back I couldn't concentrate on anything beside trying not to pee so I didn't enjoy see baby as much as I could have. But, either way we saw that there really is a baby in there and it has a heartbeat, 174bpm :) The tech took some measurements then took the average to determine due date. She said it's June 13th and I'm 9 weeks today, I don't know if I'm on board with that. I was charting pretty thoroughly and I still think I'm a few days ahead of that. Not that it really matters because baby will show up when he/she wants. I'll wait until I see my Dr on the 29th and see what she says as far as due date.

 
How far along: 9 weeks?

How big is baby: According to the Bump, (who likes to compare baby to fruits and veggies) he/she is the size of a green olive....my what to expect app says a prune

Total weight gain: -4lbs....I was really sick on Monday and couldn't keep anything down all day. I'm thinking it may have been the flu bug that's been going around, but it may have been morning sickness. Either way I haven't eaten all that much this week.

Sleep: much better then it has been, I think because it's getting colder at night here and I sleep better when it's cold in the bedroom.

Maternity Clothes: not yet. I only need the be band with one pair of jeans at this point

Food cravings : nothing sounds good, ever...it's awesome

Food Aversions: pretty much everything it sucks. I'll be so hungry and absolutely nothing sounds good (same as last week)

Challenges: Trying not to worry that something is going to go wrong. Hearing the HB and seeing the baby went a long way in helping with that though. Also trying to get through the work day while feeling soooo crappy

Movement: Not for awhile

Boy or Girl?: Won't know until January...if we decide to find out

What I’m looking forward to: feeling better & starting to take weekly belly pics

What I miss: not feeling nauseous and not being ready for bed at 8pm

Next appt:  Nov. 29th 12 week appt

8 weeks 1 day

Jeez! I'm bad at this updating thing!

How far along: 8 weeks 1 day

How big is baby: According to the Bump, (who likes to compare baby to fruits and veggies) he/she is the size of a raspberry....my what to expect app says a green olive

Total weight gain: A pound or two I think

Sleep: crappy...I can't fall asleep even if I'm exhausted and every time I roll over my boobs wake me up

Maternity Clothes: no, but I did pick up a be band that I wear with my jeans

Food cravings : almost nothing, occasionally weird stuff that I see on TV commercials

Food Aversions: pretty much everything it sucks. I'll be so hungry and absolutely nothing sounds good

Challenges: still morning sickness. I went to pick up a refill of my zofran Rx but my insurance is being douchy and I don't know when or if I'll be able to get more. I have no idea how I'm going to manage work without that. The morning sickness has been getting worse despite the meds so having none is going to be awful

Movement: Not for awhile

Boy or Girl?: Won't know until January (I might take this out for awhile)

What I’m looking forward to: Ultrasound on Nov. 8th. I went in to my appt with the nurse today and it was basically a lot of questions and to get a lab order for blood work. She said that typically the Dr checks for a heartbeat at 12 weeks with a doppler, but doesn't do any ultrasound until 19 weeks. I managed to convince her though that because my cycles were irregular (so not sure how far along I actually am), I was taking Clomid (increase chance of multiples), and I have a blocked tube (increase chance of M/C) that I should really have an ultrasound sooner. After I listed all that she was all for having an earlier ultrasound, which I am so relieved about.

What I miss: sleep and not feeling nauseous

Next appt: Nov. 8th ultrasound and Nov. 29th 12 week appt w/ dr

6 weeks 1 day

I already forgot to do this yesterday...oops!

How far along: 6 weeks 1 day

How big is baby: According to the Bump, (who likes to compare baby to fruits and veggies) he/she is the size on a sweet pea....my what to expect app says a blueberry

Total weight gain: I think like a pound...I forget to weigh myself on the same day and same time every week
Sleep: better lately, except the getting up to pee. I'm still trying to get a nap in, if I don't my morning sickness stays awful all day.

Maternity Clothes: no, but I'm thinking of picking up a be band from target soon so I don't have to try to button my jeans :-)

Food cravings : still salty stuff....yesterday I had to get onion rings from red robin. They were amazing! Today I had all the stuff out to make pasta then I changed my mind and got stuff for burgers because I had to have a burger

Food Aversions: different things at different times. Nothing ever sounds good for breakfast which is terrible because not eating makes me feel crappier

Challenges: all day morning sickness...it's so hard to be at work. I'm wishing I had a corporate job where I could shut myself up in my office and feel crappy w/o worrying about throwing up mid treatment

Movement: Not for awhile

Boy or Girl?: Won't know until January (I might take this out for awhile)

What I’m looking forward to: First Dr. Appt (same as last week)

What I miss: Bleu cheese (also the same as last week)

Next appt: October 30th, it's just with the nurse though. I don't know when my first appt with the dr will be

Weekly Check-in

I'm going to try and be good about remembering to do these weekly :-)

How far along: 5 weeks (only 35 to go LOL)

How big is baby: According to the Bump, (who likes to compare baby to fruits and veggies) he/she is the size on an apple seed, up from a poppy seed last week :-)

Total weight gain: I haven't been on the scale since a few days after I found out I'm PG so I have to idea. With all the crap that I've been consuming (I can't help it junk food sounds so yummy!) I'm sure it's not pretty

Sleep: Usually great even after a daily afternoon nap of varying lengths. Last night sucked though, I met having dreams that someone was trying to break into our house and kill us....which lead to a lot of laying awake listening to every little noise

Maternity Clothes: no, but pants are a little snugger than normal thanks to the bloat

Food cravings : Anything containing salt and ice water

Food Aversions: none so far

Challenges: none really, except getting through the work day without falling asleep

Movement: Not for awhile

Boy or Girl?: Won't know until January

What I’m looking forward to: First Dr. Appt

What I miss: Bleu cheese

Next appt: October 30th, it's just with the nurse though. I don't know when my first appt with the dr will be

No sympathy here

(Let the over sharing with the Internet commence!)

My boobs hurt today...as in when I switched from one butt cheek to the other in the recliner (which is where I spent the majority of my evening....scratch that, my entire evening) I winced, when I took off my bra I winced....you get the picture. I told my loving husband over dinner that my boobs felt pregnant today. He proceeded to suggest that it was all in my head. Um....no dear I'm not hallucinating sore boobies, I'm growing your child....boys!

Not that I expected to be having symptoms so early, but it is reassuring to actually feel pregnant on occasion. I could do without the cramping though, that particular symptom just worries me. Everything I've read says it's totally normal, but all the same it can take a hike.

Exhaustion is rough, and it's not near what it's going to be....yikes!

I'm also eating like it's my last day on earth. I'm hungry all.the.time! When I don't want to get up I just ask AJ to get it for the baby, not for me....I don't think he knows what to do with that yet so I'll keep using it LOL!

For the record I'm not complaining about actually having symptoms. We've hoped and prayed for this little one for a loooong time. I love the symptoms (except the aforementioned cramps). They remind me that the munchkin is in there and hopefully growing as he/she should be. But, I'll be the first to tell you that when the nausea hits in full force, I'm going to bitch about it. I'm a baby when it comes to that and while I'll be glad that the munchkin is letting be know they're there it will still suck. So please don't think I'm ungrateful in any way. I'm not, I'm thanking God everyday for this miracle and I will continue to do so. I just wanted to clear that up :)

4 weeks and 1 day :-)

Now I really need to be better at this....

So it finally happened....after 11 months of trying we finally got a BFP (big fat positive)!

We went on vacation last Wednesday and got back last night. I didn't bring any tests or my thermometer with me so I would stress out or test early....talk about backfire! I stressed the entire time and convinced myself that AF was just around the corner. I didn't want to get my hopes up just to see another BFN. I tested as soon as we got home last night and when I saw what I thought might be a line on the pink dye test I started freaking out and immediately grabbed the digital I had been saving for just this type of occasion LOL! Then followed what seemed like hours of watching the little hour glass and then up popped "Pregnant" I almost lost it. I was stunned...still kinda am!

I got out a onesie I bought a long time ago when we first started this journey on the front it says "I love daddy" I put it on the bed with the digital test on it and waited...I had to wait until the hubs got out of the shower. When he finally came in and saw it, his first words were "well, we'll see" WTF? what does that mean? He asked if the tests could give false reading...um not two of them :) then he was speechless...took him awhile to get past the shock, but he's coming around LOL

So here we are...let the real worrying begin! First appointment is Oct. 30th, I'm crossing my fingers and toes that this is a sticky baby and come next June we'll be welcoming a healthy happy baby. EDD should be around June 10th. Not really any symptoms yet, I've had some cramping and on and off nauseousness, today I can't seem to eat enough!

We've told a handful of people, the ones that knew we were trying and having issues. I think we'll wait to tell our parents until after my first appointment and then we'll tell the extended family at Thanksgiving and finally facebook announcement in December. I'm trying to think of a good way to tell our parents and the rest of our families. I've got time to think though :)

Now I really need to get back on the blogging train so I can look back on it down the road. Happy October!! Here's to a new chapter in our lives :-)

 -Natalie

Try, try again

No BFP this time :-(  we'll give it a shot again this month....keep your fingers crossed for us!

I can't think of a title

I started a post awhile ago about our struggles to get pregnant. I had just had an HSG done to make sure my tubes are clear, and found out that the left one is completely blocked and has been that way for awhile. I never got to finish that post because the iPad or blogger freaked out and deleted it all. I didn't feel like rewriting the entire thing so I just went on to do something else. At the time I was....stressed, that's really too light of a word, think one or two steps above stressed. On the verge maybe LOL

Since then (It was early August, the 6th I think) good things have happened. I spoke to my dr about the test results. There no way to unblock the tube so the options are leave it or remove it. Right now I'm leaving it. It can cause some pain, which I had noticed before, but never knew what it was from and if I do get pregnant it can slightly increase the chance of a miscarriage. But, now it really not a good time to be having surgery b/c I start a new job next month! More on that later, I'll finish the TTC stuff first. Good news is you only need one tube and the clear right tube can pick up an egg from either side so while it would make it easier, I don't really need it. My OB and I decided that we would try a higher dose of clomid this cycle since I didn't respond to the 50mg. I took 100mg CDs 5-9 and then waited...on August 15th I did something I haven't done since November, I ovulated!! Woot woot!

Now I'm in the 2WW (2 week wait). I broke down and tested this morning at 9DPO (9 days past ovulation) and it was negative, but it's really too early to be testing. I'll keep checking my temp every morning and if it's up I'll test. If it drops I'll assume AF is one her way.

On to new job! I've been wanting to find another job since I started working at the office I'm currently at. Not because of the people (although my boss can be a real prick) but because it's ridiculously stressful and the hours can suck since we never know when we'll get to go home we can never make after work plans or have a life during the week. I've interviewed at a handful of places in the last year, but I've been picky about what I want b/c I don't want to leave this job to go to a place I also can't stand.

After a bad day at work I, on a whim, applied for a job that was posted on Craigslist. That night I got an email asking of I could come in of an interview. It turned out that the new dentist is good friends with the dentist I used to work for before we moved to central Oregon. He seems way more easy going then my current boss and I'll be back in general dentistry which is wheren I'd rather be. I start either the first week in September. I really hope this works out. I'm nervous though, that I'll find out I'm PG and have to tell him that even though he just hired me I'll need 8-12 weeks off next year....yikes! But, we'll cross that bridge if/when we get there. Oh, and the job pays more and I work 4 days a week instead of 5...much better :-)

So there's the lengthy update. Some day I'll get around to posting pics of our house and more Alaska pics, but for today I'm done!

Still alive

I haven't forgotten I have a blog....I've just forgotten what free time is :-)

Quick update:

Alaska was amazing! I'm ready to go back, like yesterday

We moved into our new house and love it. It's got some stuff that needs to be fixed, but it's definitely livable....not to mention 10 min from work!

Still no baby...I go to the doctor on the 30th to try and figure out what the next step is. I'm planning on pushing for some more testing instead of just popping clomid that might not even be addressing the issue. I'm pretty bummed b/c I was really hoping for a made in Alaska baby

A couple (probably more lol) pics to finish it off: